• Suicide note

    by  • July 22, 2011 • Depression • 5 Comments

    I can’t believe everyone talks about life like there’s so much to live. No. There’s not. I’ve been alive 19 years and it blows nuts. I mean seriously, this shit is retarded. I’m lonely. All the time. I’m different than everyone anywhere and it doesn’t seem that I share common ground with anyone so therefore nobody gets me. Now, that’s not exactly the problem but I’m getting there. the main bang is that I don’t get myself. I never have and I have no hope. I’ve been raised up just fine but that never stopped my insides from being continuously conflicted. I really hate it here. Honestly, if I liked myself it would be a bit better I imagine. Or maybe one day when I have a significant other and or children to live for. But right now? No. I don’t even believe in god anymore. I’ve got nothing here. However, in the end, I’m not going to take the easy way out. It would be simple for me, but it would kill my family and I really don’t want them to be fucked up too. I’ll never send this letter because I’ll never take my life away. I care too much about them. I’ll drag on.

    5 Responses to Suicide note

    1. Andrew
      July 22, 2011 at 5:08 am

      Keep up with the life man! I’m just a few years older than you and I definitely know what you’re talking about. I think you need to get more involved with life, like community service, a job, or a new hobby.. Do something that you can pour yourself into that can have an impact on others. You have a lot to life for. Remember, even people in their 50s and 60s and beyond have identity crises, so at least you’ve got to wonder how they’ve coped with it for decades. Just live it day by day. Remember, life isn’t just about you. You’ve got family and friends to live for. 🙂

    2. Andrew
      July 22, 2011 at 5:09 am

      Correction: If you are a girl, I am sorry! I hastily assumed you are a boy. My apologies!

    3. Andrew
      July 22, 2011 at 5:19 am
    4. Emily
      July 22, 2011 at 6:01 am

      I believe suicide is the most selfish act a person can do. Thank you for putting the feelings of your loved ones before your own. You may feel different from everyone but compared to the ones who committed suicide you are the best kind of different. You are strong.

    5. July 22, 2011 at 7:14 pm

      No one knows exactly what you’re going through. But I can tell you, I do feel pain. You’ve got to keep that chin up. You’ve got to pull through. Not just for your friends, or family, but for yourself. Take a step back and look at yourself. LOOK AT YOURSELF. You’re human. we all struggle. we all fall weak, but are you strong enough to get back up?
      Struggles make us beautiful. The most beautiful people in life are the ones who make it through what life throws at us. You are beautiful. If you just hold on… If you just keep going, I promise you’ll see how much this is worth.

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