We’ve known each other for over 5 years. You’ve been my rock, my encourager, my best friend, my soft place to fall. You were always there for me until 2 years ago. I don’t have any idea what happened to make you hate me. Recently I think you said something about changing the nature of our relationship for you’re own protection. I don’t understand what that even means. I wish you would just be honest with me. I wish you would tell me what I did to disgust you so much that you felt it necessary to push me away. I can’t even avoid doing whatever it is I did because you won’t let me know. I feel as though you completely abandoned me when I needed you most. I wanted to share all the good things with you. Every time I did well, got a compliment, was proud of my kids, I thought of you. I love you so very much. There I said it. I put it on paper. I’m in love with you and have been for the last 3 years. I’ve not said a word about it knowing it would end all contact between us. I know I could make you far happier than anyone else ever has if we just had the chance. I constantly think about what you would say or about making love to you. Even though you have pushed me so far away and hurt me more than I thought I would ever let anyone hurt me again, I still love you. And though no one else knows. I had to write it down.