Today I woke up with a text message from you, all it said was ‘hey.’ Suddenly I couldn’t control myself. All i could think was: No, don’t talk to me. You’re just going to bring back shitloads of bullshit and memories, and you know what else you’re going to bring back? Feelings. My fucking feelings for you, so stop talking to me before I do the unthinkable and of possibly liking you again.
I had it all typed out and all I had to do was push send. Then I re-read it. I don’t care if my feelings for you reappear. I don’t care if I remember everything. I don’t care if you don’t care about me anymore. I don’t care if i remember all the bullshit you put me through. I don’t care if those memories come back.
What i realised was that it doesn’t matter who we were back then. All that matters is that you are here for me now, right this very moment.
So after about 30 minutes of thinking about it I erased my message and texted back a simple “hey”. I couldn’t wait to see what you were going to say yes. And I don’t care if I fall for you again, I know you will always catch me.