To anyone reading, here is a brief background of what’s been going on the past 6 months of my life.
In august of last year I decided to join the US military to do something with my life and get out of my home town. For my graduation my girlfriend came and we talked about everything to see what kind of course our relationship was going towards. We came to the conclusion that we would do a long-distance relationship while I was doing my job schooling.
Thing seemed to be going well the first few weeks and we talked as often as possible. A week before graduation I send her a text and her response was, “We need to talk when you get home”. Due to past experiences, I knew what this meant. So in a panic, I told her to just get it over with. So she broke up with me.
So today I arrived home for the first time in 4 months. I surprised my family members and I felt like it was going to be a good day. So earlier tonight I went over to a good friends house to visit and catch up on what’s been going on the past few months. From the get-go, things didn’t seem right. When someone would ask me about something she would talk about adds in the telephone book. She didn’t say a single word to me so I decided to take the initiative and try to say something to her and not make things so awkward around my friends. So I asked her how she had been doing, and all i got was a “Good”. I knew it was a lost cause and I began to space out a little because of being pissed off so I decided to leave. I don’t think I could have been more forgetful about thing things i brought in and the gifts i received, because i left everything at the house and didn’t realize it til i was halfway home.
So the final thing i will say is…
I’ll be leave for ND in a couple of weeks and you will never have to worry about seeing me again. I’m sorry that i was a burden the past 13 weeks. I don’t regret my choice in joining the military, because one day it’ll make me into the person i want to be. i can’t say that i will wait for you, because you won’t do the same. you will always mean something to me because you’re the first girl i ever truly loved. i hope the best for you in the future and hopefully you can find a man that can treat you the way i could, and actually be there for you.
God Bless and So long,