We’ve been together a while now and I can’t quite reach the happiness I intended.
You see, I knew what I wanted from the first day I met you. You belonged to someone else, as did I. I knew I wasn’t happy with where I was, but if I couldn’t have you I didn’t want to lose what I had either. I honestly didn’t think I stood a chance. It still shocks me to this day that I have you, that for some reason I got lucky and got exactly what it is I wanted.
And yet, I thought I’d be a lot happier than I am by this point. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mean to sound selfish. I just can’t help but feel concerned. I feel like you’re still holding out for your ex-girlfriend. It doesn’t help that I’m such good friends with her now, that I know how amazing she is. I think you were crazy for giving her up and I guess I’m just afraid that you feel the same.
I feel like I can’t let myself fall completely in love with you because you’re going to wake up one day and realise that you need to fight for her and I’ll just be left here, clutching at the pieces of my broken heart.
Do you get so frustrated with me because I don’t understand you like she does? Do you not want to be as affectionate because it’s not her lips you’re kissing or hand you’re holding? When you wake up in the morning and see me lying next to you does your heart sink because the eyes you’re seeing aren’t hers?
Is the reason you’re so much more loving over texts because you can imagine that you’re sending those messages to her and not me?
I’ve seen the way you are together and can’t help thinking that perhaps you were made for one another. Perhaps I’m just the person you’ve found that will help you realise that, I really hope I’m not.
It’s tearing me apart baby, I want to be the person you look at and think “yeah, she’s the one for me” Because when I see you my heart skips a beat and I can’t help but smile. When I turn over in the morning and see you lying next to me I honestly believe I’ve won some amazing prize.
Out of everyone I met, you were the only one I wanted. The one I was willing to give everything I had up for. I just wish things were the same for you.
I love you