• John…

    by  • July 20, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Love - Pure and Simple • 0 Comments

    I’d like to start off by saying, I really need to tell you this, but I do not expect anything to come of what I have to say. I would never want to make you feel pressured or uncomfortable, I just need to say this for me. I’m only trying to be honest with you, and I hope you can respect that.

    You need to know, that I love you, and honestly I always have been in love with you. The difference between then and now is that my perspective on so many things has changed. I used to believe that even though I loved you, it was not enough. I believed that we just simply were not meant to be because we didn’t think the same way, or even believe the same things. That changed. I believe we have much more in common now because the things that bothered me about you, no longer bother me. The previous reasons I had for justifying us not being together, no longer exist. I know it’s possible you don’t feel the same way, but for my own sanity I need to tell you this. I don’t want to always wonder “what if” about us. I don’t want to be like en and be sad because he never got to tell her how he felt before she got engaged. I don’t want to feel like it would have worked out if it were just the right time. The time is now.

    I don’t want you to think I love you just because you’re the best option for me. It is so much more than that. I don’t want you to think it’s because I’m unable to let go of what we had in the past. I know I can let you go, I just don’t want to. I love you because you are the most incredible man I have ever known. For seven years you have been such an amazing friend to me, even when I didn’t deserve it. You’re the only person who has never had a problem being honest with me, even if it meant hurting my feelings a little bit. I respect that so much. You are a part of the reason I am who I am today. You have showed me so many things about myself that I didn’t know where there. You inspire me to be a better person every single day.

    I understand if you don’t feel the same way, that just means that there is nothing I can do about it, and I will start the slow, painful process of moving on. But if there is any microscopic part of you that even feels the same way, please tell me. I believe in us. We have something I can feel it. It never went away, and I am willing to do whatever it takes to make this work.

    I love you unconditionally.

    I will tell you this to your face, hopefully. But that means you’ve got to make a point to come see me. Please.

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