• “It’s just for the best, okay? Just trust me on this…”

    by  • July 20, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Closure • 2 Comments

    BH- I don’t know what happened. I don’t know what went wrong, I don’t know why you don’t want to talk to me anymore… But when I get a message saying “Its just for the best, okay? Just trust me on this…” I can’t help but feel, no… it’s not for the best… the best would be for you to confess what’s wrong, why all of a sudden your attitude has changed. It’s funny how in a span of two weeks, two people can go from talking like they’ve known each other their entire lives… to not talking at all, and not wanting to talk again because its “for the best” well, the best has yet to come, and if you don’t want to be a part of it, that’s fine by me. No longer will I put the effort to try and talk to you, because now it’s clear you don’t want to talk back. The words you opted to use, they stuck, and they hurt, its like a stinging from a thistle, it’ll be there until I decide to wipe it clean, well, here it is, I’m wiping it clean, I didn’t want our friendship to end, it was the last thing I wanted. But it’s clear to me now that… maybe it was never there to begin with on your end… I don’t know if you’ll ever read this, but that’s the risk I’m taking. If you do, when/if you do decide that you want to re open communication… you know how to find me. My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to and that you’re dreams stay big, your worries stay small, when one door closes, there’s always an escape through another door, just remember, you can go back the way you came. A lot of my life I’ve regretted. But most of all… I think coming home was the only thing I’ve regretted in the last 8 months. Because maybe, just maybe had I not come home… had not left you and all my friends behind… maybe, just maybe, we would still be talking, but family comes first, always has, always will. So… Although I regret leaving now. In the long run, life happens, people move on and it sucks that our friendship had to, I hope eventually we can go back to the way things used to be… when you want them too…. I’m sorry for all I have done. But, when you’re sorry as well. Let me know. le grá- J

    2 Responses to “It’s just for the best, okay? Just trust me on this…”

    1. Brent
      July 20, 2011 at 11:44 am

      It sucks doesn’t it. For everything to be going right and then them suddenly get a change of heart. But the only thing you need to know is that other person, the person you’re beating yourself up over, most likely isn’t sitting around thinking about you. I know that seems mean but that’s exactly what I needed to hear for me to stop caring. I don’t know about your scenario or the ages of those involved but In my case I’ve come to find that I wasn’t guilty of anything. She was a stupid 19 year girl, probably not ready to date, whose’s immature and inconsiderate of her actions. You see youre not always the problem. Just because she/he isnt talking to you anymore doesnt me you did something wrong. It could very easily just me that person was ready or just isnt interested and to nice, or to stuck up, to let you down. Carry on and live your righteously. Theres no use sitting around crying over a could be lover when theres so many other awesome ppl out there.
      Keep fighting the good fight and in future dont be so quick to accept fault. If you dont know what you did wrong then youre either stupid or innocent. Let your friends and family be the judge.
      Best of luck with your heartache.

    2. J
      July 20, 2011 at 11:55 am

      Yeah man, I understand, It’s the same age sort of, 18, nearly 19. I’ve got friends telling me that exact same thing. Mutual friends funny enough, all think she’s just being stuck up if she won’t even have the lady balls to tell me what’s wrong or why she’s suddenly come to this reasoning, I’m due to go back to the town where we live next week, and, at this point I’m not worrying about it, living my life to the fullest, and putting everything behind me. i never thought this site would work… but it actually does help and it makes it so you can get anger out you know? thanks for the advice brah, really appreciate it!

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