• Gone but not forgotten

    by  • July 20, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Love - Pure and Simple • 1 Comment

    Dear the sweetest boy I will ever meet,

    We’ve known each other since you moved in next door 12 years ago. We became best friends the first day we spoke. I remember the days we used to spend in your back garden playing soccer… Oh to have those days back…

    You supported me through my parents divorce, sat with me crying for hours on end in the dark because you knew I wouldn’t have wanted you to see me cry. We were perfect for each other. I spent every moment possible with you. But now, what difference do our feelings make? My mum went and ruined everything and is made me move hundreds of miles away… And I’ll never forgive her for it.

    I miss how we used to joke about getting married. I miss how we used to joke about having 10 children and the names we had picked. I miss how you used to sneak into my room at night just so you could kiss me goodnight or to check that I wasn’t crying. Baby I miss everything about you. I don’t even have your number anymore and you were so angry when I told you I was leaving you deleted everything from my computer.

    Last night I attempted suicide. I had taken an overdose but just as I felt like I was going to pass out, I made myself sick. You are the reason I’m still here today, writing this letter. I decided I couldn’t possibly hurt you that bad. I know now that the moment I hit 18, I will go looking for you and maybe, just maybe, my dreams for the future with you will come true.

    I will never forget what you have done for me.

    Love you forever,
    Your ex- best friend/ girlfriend

    One Response to Gone but not forgotten

    1. Amanda
      July 22, 2011 at 6:32 pm

      wow. This really touched me…

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