• What can I do now?

    by  • July 19, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Letting Go • 2 Comments

    I hate where I go to college. I have only one good friend. and now she hates me. I don’t know what to do or what I did. she simply hates me because I got a kitten. a KITTEN. she told me she would punt it out a window if she ever saw it. now i have to live a whole year with her. at a college i hate. with no friends. I became so depressed living there that i stopped eating and sleeping.. my grades plummeted because i had no will to try. I stopped painting. I stopped drawing. I stopped living. So I decided maybe i’ll try to find a replacement roommate so i don’t have to live with her and i thought maybe i’d transfer. well the girl told my dad and he, being the ridiculous hate filled man he is, yelled at me for over an hour, told me i was wasting his money, and told me i’m not allowed to even go to college anymore.

    I didn’t know trying to be happy and trying to find the will to live was so wrong… what can I do now? i’ve got nowhere to go except to an apartment where I am hated. next to a campus i can’t go to anymore. where I have no one. I’m so alone i have no one to tell this to. no one who can actually help me.

    so I ask “what can I do”.. but really it doesn’t matter. i’ve already given up. there is no helping someone like me

    2 Responses to What can I do now?

    1. Martin
      July 19, 2011 at 5:44 am

      Funny how small the world is; I’m in a similar situation.

    2. Rue
      July 19, 2011 at 9:28 am

      funny how cruel people can be.. im sorry you are in a similar situation as me. i hope everything turns out alright for you


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