Guys tell me I’m thin and pretty often enough. So why do I feel so fat and ugly? Maybe it’s because my own mother hints around that I should lose weight, always telling me to watch what I eat or discouraging me from small (usually healthy) snacks. I mean, I did gain 5 pounds from my first year of college, but it’s really not that obvious. I tried to purposely become anorexic, but I can’t handle the physical pain of starvation.
I’m just not strong enough.