• An Ode to the Lost

    by  • July 19, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Confusion, Waxing Poetic • 1 Comment

    I am lost.

    Do you hear me?

    Does anyone hear me?

    Sometimes, it feels hard to hear myself.

    When I feel like I know what I want,

    and know where I’m going, the idea fades.

    And I am left with nothing.

    It makes me feel..shattered.

    I know what to search for but cant find a start.

    The three concepts each person will search for:

    Peace, Love, Happiness.

    Peace, at it’s simplest, is an harmony of all

    beings, soulful or soulless.

    Peace is a concept I don’t even understand let

    alone have experienced.

    I feel that peace is unattainable.

    I have no peace.

    Love, at it’s simplest, is a harmony between two

    people, in all aspects of life.

    Emotional, Physical, Spiritual, Mental.

    But to find love, you must find truth.

    I cannot find truth.

    I have no Love.

    Happiness get’s a different intro.

    Happiness is the hardest for me to grasp.

    Let me just say, I am unhappy.

    I’m not going to feel sorry for myself, because I’m not the only one.

    Unhappiness comes from everywhere.

    Friends, Family, Lovers, People, The World, Myself.

    Friends betray.

    Family loses interest.

    Lovers leave.

    People don’t care.

    The World sure as hell doesn’t care.

    I’ve lost hope.

    I am unhappy with my body, with my mind, with my soul.

    I am lost because I am losing myself.

    Losing the person I was,

    and failing at finding who I am.

    Losing myself to the

    friends, family, lovers, people, and world

    that have made me unhappy.

    Finding myself has to be done on my own.

    I will find who I am eventually.

    But for now, I remain lost.

    This is an ode to the lost.

    Without song.

    Without lyrics.

    Without melody.

    Just a message.

    One Response to An Ode to the Lost

    1. S.
      July 19, 2011 at 10:02 am

      So much sadness and yet not.
      All very true in essence.
      Yes finding yourself has to be done by yourself….
      just don’t forget to keep your eyes on that little light that is showing you the way. Open your eyes, it’s always right there, you
      only have to see and have faith in it. Everybody has this guiding light, everybody’s light may have a different name, a different shape, some are spiritual and some are real people. Different to each, just look at yours and everything will be alright. Promise, because I have been there and sometimes, I still am.

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