• you were my first

    by  • July 18, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Confusion • 0 Comments

    Dear chris,

    I don’t know what i’m feeling. I feel as though i should have moved on weeks ago seeing as you broke up with me almost two months ago. I hate to be that girl who is attached and clingy, i have done my absolute best not to be that girl. but inside that is who i am. you were my first. my first boyfriend my first kiss. i wanted you to be my first everything. I’m happy that you were my first. but i’m sad that you didn’t last. we ended well, no one got mad, no one felt bad, but i felt hurt. i’m frustrated because i told you you shouldn’t talk to my dad because it would not be normal dating, you would have to wait years. and i tried to make that clear but you still insisted on talking to him. and when you insisted i thought; wow someone who actually cares for me that much to not only talk to my dad but wait till we could be together…. and i don’t blame you for not wanting to wait. it’s okay. but i warned you and i shouldn’t have let you do it. i knew that i would end up getting hurt. i just didn’t think it would be so soon. I’m glad i didn’t waste my first “i love you”.

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