I can’t sleep tonight because I can’t get over the fact that it’s really over between us. I’ve been waiting and waiting for you to “come back” and I could probably wait forever- but that’s not fair to me. And so with this letter, I rid myself of you for good.
Thank you for being a shoulder to cry on when I needed it, an endless secret keeper, and a friend when I had no one else in the world. Thank you for redefining love for me and giving me my first glimpse of what it really truly is. Thank you for giving me a second chance, because for that I’ll be forever grateful.
I know somewhere deep down you always had the best intentions. I wish that the good that’s so deep inside of you would come closer to the surface so the rest of the world could see it too. I will always think the highest of you despite everything that’s gone down between us. And everytime I say I hate you, I’m really trying to say I love you.
So thank you for everything we were, Brian, and know that no matter what I love you more than anything (you can imagine, and everything you can’t).
I’ll be seeing you.