• Lost? for how long?

    by  • July 17, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Thinking of you • 4 Comments

    Dear You,

    I hope you don’t ever read this, cause I’m sure you’ll know it’s me, but I just need to let it all out..well not all, but at least some.

    So, first of all, you Are kind of complex, and I find that interesting, you know that, what you don’t know is that it might be the reason I’m falling for you. See, I don’t know if I’ve fallen yet, but I think I’m getting real close. If feels great but not right at the same time. You’d be to innocent, too honest, too selfless compared to me, and you’d always take the blame say it’s you not me…well I know it’s me, someday you will, too.

    And just when I imagine being with you, travelling around the world with you or even lay there under the stars with you it gives me the chills. I want to make you happy, so badly, and it tears me up to see you so lost and confused, knowing that maybe I’d be one of the reasons you can’t stand life anymore. I worry about you, and just when I ask about you, it’s like you slam the door in my face..then you come back apologizing,when it was all my fault since the start. You’re too good for me, I know that, and it shouldn’t hurt no matter what you do, cause I deserve that.

    And I could help you find your way out this mess, I could, and I wish I would.

    But I’ll keep my distance, mark my limits, we’re just friends, I wouldn’t stand to lose you, and you keep hinting I should let go, and so I will, but I’ll be worried sick about you. Guys like you don’t exist, and even if they did, I wouldn’t care, cause I only care about You. Take care of yourself, and find a way in this new year, this new life, to let go of life’s bitterness and unfairness.

    And I’ll always be here, looking after you from afar.

    One more thing, don’t you ever tell me to be happy, cause I’d be happy if only with You.

    ..that’s just the beginning, there’s more inside

    4 Responses to Lost? for how long?

    1. just a nobody
      July 17, 2011 at 11:53 pm

      Forgive me for being blunt but your letter pasted a cynical grin to my face! Why? It sure doesn’t sound like *just friends* to me but if you feel comfortable with yourself to let is slip away like this? Choices, we all have to make them for ourselves, may yours be the best for you, sincerely.

    2. whatever
      July 18, 2011 at 12:54 am

      well, yeah, it’s just that both of us won’t be getting in any relationships. so we have to settle as friends, and I don’t know about him, cause I might just be getting it wrong. But I’ll be okay as long as he is.

    3. anonymous
      July 18, 2011 at 1:48 am

      Why wont you get in a relationship if you love each other? How do you know he would be better without you? Why dont you believe in yourself that you could be a good person? You dont want to? If he apologizes and it’s your fault all you have to do is say that. Why cant you?

    4. whatever
      July 18, 2011 at 2:17 pm

      it’s way too complicated you see.. that’s all I have to say right now :/

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