I hope you don’t ever read this, cause I’m sure you’ll know it’s me, but I just need to let it all out..well not all, but at least some.
So, first of all, you Are kind of complex, and I find that interesting, you know that, what you don’t know is that it might be the reason I’m falling for you. See, I don’t know if I’ve fallen yet, but I think I’m getting real close. If feels great but not right at the same time. You’d be to innocent, too honest, too selfless compared to me, and you’d always take the blame say it’s you not me…well I know it’s me, someday you will, too.
And just when I imagine being with you, travelling around the world with you or even lay there under the stars with you it gives me the chills. I want to make you happy, so badly, and it tears me up to see you so lost and confused, knowing that maybe I’d be one of the reasons you can’t stand life anymore. I worry about you, and just when I ask about you, it’s like you slam the door in my face..then you come back apologizing,when it was all my fault since the start. You’re too good for me, I know that, and it shouldn’t hurt no matter what you do, cause I deserve that.
And I could help you find your way out this mess, I could, and I wish I would.
But I’ll keep my distance, mark my limits, we’re just friends, I wouldn’t stand to lose you, and you keep hinting I should let go, and so I will, but I’ll be worried sick about you. Guys like you don’t exist, and even if they did, I wouldn’t care, cause I only care about You. Take care of yourself, and find a way in this new year, this new life, to let go of life’s bitterness and unfairness.
And I’ll always be here, looking after you from afar.
One more thing, don’t you ever tell me to be happy, cause I’d be happy if only with You.
..that’s just the beginning, there’s more inside