• I’m so happily scared…

    by  • July 17, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Love - Pure and Simple • 0 Comments

    You’re the one. I know it. I could marry you this moment and not think twice. I’m so completely sure its ridiculous babe.

    And I’m terrified of it. You are the first man in my life that I’m afraid to lose. Every other boyfriend, every other guy I’ve dated; I didn’t care. If they left, I just found a new one. They were simple, ordinary, easily replaced. You cannot be replaced, if you were gone – I’d have lost the best thing I’ve ever had.

    Every bit of me is so in love with you – and my mind is telling me to run the other way. Because you could hurt me. If you decide I’m not what you want, I’d be shattered … it’s the scariest feeling I’ve ever had. And the most amazing.

    I catch myself staring at you constantly… I can’t help it. I look at you and think, “my god, that’s my man. how in the world did I ever get so lucky?” I’ve done nothing in my life to deserve someone so absolutely perfect. You are amazing. You treat me like a princess, always. You’re a true gentlemen, a real man. I can’t imagine life without you now that you’re here.

    I know people are saying we’re rushing in, that it’s just lust or puppy love or whatever the hell they want to call it. But I’ve rushed into things before, I’ve mistaken lust for love before, I’ve been through puppy love, I’ve been through the fake love before; this is different, you are different. So different. I don’t know how to describe it. I’m terrified of jynxing it.

    In other words, I love you … I am in love with you. For the first time in my life, I know for a fact that I am positively, absolutely, completely in love with you. I would do anything in the world it took to make you happy. My whole life is now centered around seeing that gorgeous smile of yours light up your face – thats all I want. To make you smile, to know you’re happy. That makes my life complete.

    I’m terrified of how I feel. I’m terrified of what the future may hold. I’m terrified of you leaving. I’m terrified of you not feeling the same. I’m teerrified of everything – but no matter what happens, no matter how scared I am – I’m ready. Its worth all the risks. You’re worth all the risks. Without a doubt.

    I’m ready to fall, I’m okay with falling, because I trust you’re going to be there to catch me.

    Please, prove me right. I want this to be it babe, this is it for me.
    You’re it for me.

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