I went out with someone and I never liked her. I just wanted to dance with her and have some laughs. she didn’t, she said that she was so tired and slept a bit last night so I was dancing but she didn’t. I should have just danced with other girls in the club. I didn’t do anything wrong to her, but I was too clingy. I’m never like that but I don’t know why I was like that. she’s a criminal though.
in the end of the night some guy started to talk to her on train platform and I was REALLY angry. first thing was he looked like a pussy and I didn’t like it, and she acted like she wanted to be left alone with him. I don’t understand because I was there to just have some fun. but I did the same thing to someone else before. I don’t believe in karma though.
he looked like a puss so I started to say bad things to him. I told him to leave but I told him too late. I should have told him from the first time I saw him talking to her. I was a pussy still, anyway.
I wanna cry. crying relieves stress a lot. but lately I can’t cry.. maybe because I thought men shouldn’t cry or I want to be manlier. I want to be held and someone to tell me it was horrible. and I must have been hurt and sad.. and it’s ok to cry. somebody, tell me that..