First off, I still care about you, I really, truly always have. Just not in the way you want me to.
We didn’t have the time to really build a real relationship before you deployed. Believe me, I wanted this to work, but the timing wasn’t right, and I should have listened to my gut instead of letting this drag on. But you cornered me the week before you left. How could I let you down? The last thing I wanted was for your to feel hurt and alone right before you set off for 6 months at sea. Especially when I know how much you care for me; You love me in a way I’ve never experienced from someone else before. I just couldn’t and still can’t stand the thought of breaking your heart, but my feelings for you aren’t the same.
I wish with all my heart that there was an easier way. 🙁
I have been faithful to you, though, and promise that I will remain faithful until you return and I can tell in person how I feel. I hope and pray that you will understand.
I just wasn’t ready for this. I’m so sorry, with all my heart.