• Please fight

    by  • July 16, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Grief, Help • 1 Comment

    You have left now for the third time in our 3 1/2 years of marriage. Your mental issues have reached an uncontrollable level. The episodes are getting worse. I’ve begged over and over to please get help but your stubborness prevents it. You are in so much pain and I can’t do anything to help. It’s killing my soul to see you destroy yourself and our marriage. I meant every word of our marriage vows, through sickness and health. I will remain by your side but you won’t let me. I will be with you step by step but you push me away. I have no one to turn to for help. You’ve made so many promises to get help and you’ve broken each one. You say that you leave to fix yourself on your own but it never happens. It’s too big for that. Your are my soulmate, the love of my life and I can’t bear this pain. Your mental state affects me much more than I thought possible. To see the pain you are in, the anger you direct at me and the helplessness I feel is making me almost as depressed as you. Please fight this and take care of yourself. Get the help you need so we can be happy together again. I love you now and always.

    With so much love,

    Your wife

    One Response to Please fight

    1. HanaLLJ
      July 29, 2011 at 1:45 pm

      He will only help himself if he wants to truly in his heart. He’s probably like i used to be, scared of getting help, because the drugs numb you, and change you. You just have to be there for him babe and do whats right for him. I know its hard to watch somebody slowly destruct before your eyes but you love him and im sure he loves you. Time is a beautiful healer. What worked for me was counselling and taking all stress out of my life, living freely =) good luck. xoxox

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