You have left now for the third time in our 3 1/2 years of marriage. Your mental issues have reached an uncontrollable level. The episodes are getting worse. I’ve begged over and over to please get help but your stubborness prevents it. You are in so much pain and I can’t do anything to help. It’s killing my soul to see you destroy yourself and our marriage. I meant every word of our marriage vows, through sickness and health. I will remain by your side but you won’t let me. I will be with you step by step but you push me away. I have no one to turn to for help. You’ve made so many promises to get help and you’ve broken each one. You say that you leave to fix yourself on your own but it never happens. It’s too big for that. Your are my soulmate, the love of my life and I can’t bear this pain. Your mental state affects me much more than I thought possible. To see the pain you are in, the anger you direct at me and the helplessness I feel is making me almost as depressed as you. Please fight this and take care of yourself. Get the help you need so we can be happy together again. I love you now and always.
With so much love,