• I Try to Fix What Isn’t Broken

    by  • July 16, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Miss You • 0 Comments

    I didn’t see you coming, you hit me like a bullet train to the back of the head, except it didn’t hurt. It melted me down to a giant puddle of uuuummmmmmmmwwwwoooowwwww’s. Then you responded with the same feelings. For over a week you continued to flatter me to death and I didn’t think I could fly any higher. Then you stopped contacting me and I always think that means it’s over and I wonder what the hell I did wrong….so I constantly send you texts saying I’m sorry and shit like that and really, nothing is wrong, you’re just being a dude. I had to talk to guy friends to get some advice from the inside of a mind of a dude to figure out why you shut down on me. They said it’s normal….it took me a while to ‘get it’ but today I finally am ok with what’s going on. I brought you a rose and a note saying this was me giving you space and I hope you liked me doing that but I don’t know, you still haven’t responded since I saw you that day and you said you were asleep and you would call me later. You didn’t but yesterday you said you will holler at me today. I am patiently waiting but if you don’t, I’ll still leave you alone. My feelings for you haven’t changed. I have serious abandonment issues and terrified of losing something awesome. I’m ok being single, but when that connection suddenly goes ‘poof’ on my end it seems, I freak out with tons of anxiety and I withdraw and it completely ruins my week. I can’t do anything. I worry about you and what you are going thru like you said you are dealing with a lot right now. This ad to my left of Flo from Progressive grinning at me isn’t making this easier. I hate her. I don’t want to hate. I want to love you forever and we have soooooooo much in common I hope you call today and can tell me how you are. I’m sorry I have freaked out on you and sent you the most ridiculous texts. It’s only from anxiety, not how I really am. I miss you terribly and want to see you as soon as you can.

    I hope you can understand my end of this too. I’m sure you will. You’re amazing and we have all the same friends, I want to be a power couple like I’m used to having in the past.


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