• I promised…

    by  • July 16, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Lost Love • 0 Comments

    I promised I would never give up,
    I promised I would never hurt you,
    I promised I would never break your heart…
    But look what I did… you told me you’re not as happy with others but they don’t hurt you… that one cut down deep. But I deserved it, you let me in… I didn’t let you in like I should’ve. I was too wrapped up in my own problems to be worried about letting someone in, that I lost my chance. You were perfect and still are. But I gave up… I let go first, then you did. I regret that so much… I cry from the guilt… from the hurt I’ve caused you from the space where you used to be. I hate that I can’t just call when something wrong, I hate the awkwardness when we talk, I hate that I messed up… FUCKED UP. It’s my fault, all my fault… you loved me with all you could and I didn’t do the same. Why? Why couldn’t I do the same thing? Gosh, I hate my self for that. I’ve been so closed and I let you in a bit… but it wasn’t enough. I should’ve told you everything… I should’ve said how I felt at the time, I should’ve have looked back… think logically like I always do… I should have been lead by my heart not my brain. I should’ve let go… not try to make things perfect… love isn’t perfect… it has ups and downs, but I was too blind to see that… But when I finally realized… it was too late.

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