Hi, it’s been a while. I wish I could talk to you right now, tell you that I miss you and that I love you, and hear something back, but you don’t ever reply to my texts. We’ve been apart for about five months now…it’s getting close to the longest time we’ve been apart. I hate it. After spending so long with you, and then breaking up for six months and then getting you back only to have us break up again…I’m slowly dying on the inside. I think about you every single second of every single day. I’ve never felt like someone truly belonged with me, like someone was truly mine, but you are. Why aren’t you here? Why aren’t we together? We clicked like no one else. You can’t date someone for four years and not be completely in love. I’m so sorry that I didn’t reply to that last text you sent me…the last one that showed any shred of you caring. If I had, would things be different? Would you still be mine? I pray for you to come back to me every night, just ask God to give me a sign. Every day that I go without you is like peeling away a layer of myself. It’s almost like I’m disappearing. I don’t feel like I’m all here, because half of me is missing. (You.) You will probably never see this letter, but I just hope that whatever you’re doing, wherever you are, you’re happy. I guess I have to accept that even if I’m not the one making you happy, maybe you are, somehow. I know you’ve got to be a hell of a lot more happy than me. You’ll always have my heart. I always try to meet new people, hoping that I’ll feel the way about one of them that I feel about you, but all I do is make comparisons and that gets me nowhere because NO ONE compares to you. I could write books on your adorable smile, your funny old man laugh, your hugs, your kisses, your snores. Everything about you is so great, and I hope someone tells you that now, because you should always keep it in mind. I know that I wasn’t the greatest girlfriend to you, and I didn’t try as much as I could have, but just know that you were always great to me, no matter what. I’m so so sorry.
Remember that wherever you are, whatever you’re doing, I’m loving you. Always.