It makes me sad sometimes that i can’t tell you i love you, that you touching me even brushing my arm makes me cringe…I wonder sometimes if you wonder why. I do. I know I must miss being close with you on some level. But when I think about it…i get so fucking angry…I get angrier then I get about anything that’s happened to me so far in life and there’s a hell of a lot of reasons for those but i don’t know what the one for this is. I thought maybe it was just a teenage thing that would go away but it didn’t. I wonder if it ever will. I remember how much I use to need you, I needed you around I needed your comfort but now…even a hug i have to force. It’s VERY hard for me to feel love for you…..and I’m the type of person that loves everybody…What happened?