• lose my number. permanently.

    by  • July 15, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Letting Go • 0 Comments

    I hate you; I love you more. I don’t want to see you ever again; I want to wake up next to you every morning for eternity. I am so conflicted. You’re living with your boyfriend and yet you call me every week telling me you miss me and that i loved you more than anyone else has. I know that i did, and still do. I am so lost without you in my life. I feel like i haven’t been at home since i last was with you. I will always cherish every memory of you; from the good and amazing, to the bad and horrible. You have shown me things about myself I had no idea about. I had had girlfriends before but none like you. I fell for you, hard. I have a hole in my heart where you took a piece of it and kept it. I want you to keep it. I love you more than i can possibly explain and I miss everything about you; from the look on your face when you answered the door to your house thats been demolished, to the fighting we had. I have thought about you every single day since i met you. I hope this finds you and i hope your happy. I would give anything to be sure your happy. I know i said not to ever call me again and my rational mind says that’s the way it should be because i will never be able to talk to you as just a friend, but my heart burns for you. It makes me feel alive and dead at the same time. I dont know how to get over you. Should i try? Or should i fight for you. I have an insane passion in my heart that could make me fight a war for you. But is it worth it? would i be able to change a damn thing? you told me to call you when were done school so we can get together and spend forever with you and that our recent conversations where just bad timing, but should i believe you? i want to believe in you and me. i love you so much. I would answer every call and text you send. you’re my weakness and always will be…

    goodbye for now laura, or “lo” as you go by now…..

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