My way is obviously not the right way to you. Everyone else tells me it is right but i made a commitment to do what I needed to do. I can’t take seeing those tears as I go. It has to make u think of wanting to help me help him help us find a way to make something right. U know I need advice n am the way I am because I have failed already simply by this. I will never stop trying to at least help him so he don’t end up like us. I’ve read, asked, went from one extreme to another trying to find what works to get my friend who I trusted and listen to even if u don’t think I do. I take it all in and try n try. Years I followed ur lead knowing you was smart and i was not as confident in myself from watching you be so good at it all. My friend wouldn’t have left it at this so fast knowing how much I cared and how much I wanted and did anything u wanted to keep a smile on you . It was the least I could do after what u went though with barely sheding a tear the first year. So strong inside for your cover of pain. I never wish on u hurt. I never wish u feeling the cold of sleet on way to work feeling better about myself for doing what was right to make comfort for you.
I just want u to know that proud feeling knowing u can help me. I can say a million things but nine have helped.
This is what I’m left to ask. I need help. U can help this by just helping so little. Can this be a good start?