I hate that it was weird when I saw you yesterday. You may not have realized it, but I felt like everything was different. I just want us to go back to what we were. It would be wonderful, extraordinary. It would mean the world, and more, to me. To be able to see you when I want to. To feel important enough for your time. For you to actually mean it when you say that you miss me. I just want to feel special .. And you did that for me. You made me feel happy, when I thought that there was no happiness. You didn’t know it but I was so depressed before you. And for you to be able to fix that .. By coming over at four in the morning, or just texting me… Being there for me. And not even knowing it. That meant so much to me, and I’ll never be able to repay you for everything that you’ve done. I know that I wasn’t able to keep up with you .. You were always so ahead of me. Everything, I was behind. And I’m sorry… I want to change it. I want to experience the things that I did with you .. And more. I want to have fun. I want to be silly AND sexy. I just want things back.
I’m sorry that I’ll never be good enough.