I don’t know how it happened, but this time, when you came back home for leave, I think I finally let myself fall in love with you. Even though you’ve never personally told me, I know you knew this was coming two years ago. You saw it but I was too busy being wild and living my life that I chose to ignore it. I remember one time, close to New Years 2010, you asked me out to dinner. I somehow found a way out of it, remember? I look at those times and wish I could go back and spend that time with you.
I’m older now. I want the same things you do. I am so glad you helped me see it this time and I so happy to have you in my life. You are over in Afghanistan right now, yet because of you, I still wake up every morning happier than I’ve been in recent months.
I miss you. I’m not saying it out of habit or anything like that. I just genuinely wish you were here. I know I’ll see you in a little over a month again for your leave again, but I’m really afraid what I’m going to do for the next 9 months after that waiting for you to come back home. I’m scared but I promise I’ll do my best.
I haven’t said it to you yet.. but I love you. I’ll see you soon.