What have I gotten myself into? I should never have let my guard down. I should never have invited you in. I knew I was in trouble when I first dreamed about you; I knew then you would haunt my unconscious mind and that you’d never leave me in peace; you haven’t since. You’ll never know that I left her because I fell for you. But falling for you was a mistake–a sweet, delicious, awkward mistake. And although I know it’s been wrong and frightening and frustrating and defeating, it’s been transforming. I’ll never be the same for having loved you. But I can no longer continue to waste away waiting for you. I must move on. I must quit you. I must. You’ll never know what you’ve meant to me. I’ll never tell you. I couldn’t. I wouldn’t. But I have your face forever ingrained in my mind and your voice in my heart. I’ll miss you. I’ll miss the idea of us.