You always acted like I was the only problem. You always led me to believe that our downfall was all my fault. I cried so many tears over the pain that kept my heart in a constant state of agony, that it’s so hard to cry now. I gave up every inch of me when I left that house. That hell hole. I left it all behind me and started over new just for you.
I was never good enough. You can’t honestly say to me that you love me now when all the fights we had before were put up on my shoulders. How can I believe that you want me to stick around when you were never happy? You lost everything because of me. Your social life, your friends, respect from your family, time, and energy. All of that is wasted.
I’m sorry I did that to you and I’m sorry that I had to add insult to injury, but I just couldn’t stay with you because I realized that I wasn’t happy either. I did try though. I tried so hard to be civil but you just wanted to fight and throw accusations into my face. How is bringing him up going to help us?! How is brow beating me going to save what we had?
Nearly three years was given up to changing everything about me for you when you never once made me feel like a real person.
Just know that I love you and that I still want to be in your life.