• Why?

    by  • July 13, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Disappointment • 0 Comments

    I just don’t get it. What was your motive? You live across the entire country… When I was there I knew trying to make this work wasn’t rational or realistic, and i didn’t plan on ever talking to you again after the vacation was over. But you didn’t let that. You swept me in with your promises and your hopes for a future for us, and knocked me off my feet. And that’s where I am now, still on the ground. I made myself so vulnerable to you and I TRUSTED that what you were saying wasn’t just make believe. You told me I was the girl you’d been looking for and the one that you had dreamed of and that I was perfect for you. You told me that we would be together one day and that the distance wouldn’t be an issue. Why did I believe you for a second? Oh yeah, because you ARE the guy I have always dreamed of… you made me realize that I shouldn’t settle for anybody who’s not exactly what I want. Meeting you turned my whole world upside down. I was content before I met you. I had a plan. I knew exactly what my life was going to be. But after that vacation, everything has changed. Now my life is going in a completely different direction and you are the sole reason. Everything was going so well. You made me so happy, every day. What changed? It seemed like overnight you had a complete change of heart. You went from talking to me all day, everyday, to acting like I annoyed you. Did you meet a new “dream girl”? You must have because you told me there was nothing that could make you stop liking me to telling me “out of sight, out of mind”. If I was in the same state as you would you still like me? You told me you had never felt this way about someone before, that you had never fallen that fast. Were you lying? Do you not realize how much you screwed my life up?!? I gave up on someone who I loved and who loved me. I realize now that it was the best option for me. But that doesn’t change the fact that you made me fall for you and made it seem like there actually was someone out there that I thought was perfect in all senses of the word; and then letting me down. I really liked you, I was seriously looking into moving 3,000 miles for you. And you alone. Maybe someday, I’ll see you again and you’ll realize the mistake you made by letting me go. I know we didn’t know each other for very long but, the way we met was like something out of a romantic comedy. In fact, our whole relationship was like a movie. How could you build me up so much and then just let me fall so far? What was your motivation for this? I live across the entire country… I could have been happy without ever knowing you. But, I guess what would be the joy of living without knowing that you’re out there? And that you’re perfect for me. This sounds super cocky and spoiled but, I’m not used to not getting what I want and I usually do in the end. How could you do this to me? I don’t understand. I hate you. But I miss you more than anything. I thought that you were different, but it turns out you’re still just a guy.

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