Dearest R, Don’t go, i’m going to miss you please don’t go. i know for ages now you have been saying you are leaving for a year but i never really believed you would. you are going to move halfway across the world and prob meet some fantastic girl and never come back again. as
Why do you care so much? Honestly, why is my life, and the decisions I make, any concern of yours at all? I’m not you. What I do has no affect on you. So why do you care? Why can’t I just be happy and do what I please? Why can’t I not have to
Idk what was up with you today… Idk if I did something…? I don’t know how I could’ve done anything, considering we can’t talk much. But if I did anything, then you need to let me know so I can fix whatever it might be. I really would rather you be smiley boo 🙂 So
I loved you like you could not believe I think about you when i’m with the person i cheated on you for… I live each day with the guilt in my heart that you don’t know i cheated I hate this that i’m still in love with you…you know it but i can’t say it
I wish you can see how far I’ve gone without you. I wish you can see how happy I am with my sister, my mother, grandparents, and uncle. I wish you could finally get through your thick skull that I don’t need. I never needed you. You were the one who walked away, but yet
I’ll try to believe in the real thing. I really will. I’ll be less stubborn, less cynical. I will work on it until I actually believe in it for myself. It’s funny how things turn out.