I don’t know why you’ve begun to show interest in me all of the sudden. I guess it was those pictures. But You… there is something very distinct about you, that is entirely different from anything I’m accustomed to, and it feels like an effing dream. I think it’s that after we talked, like really talked, for the first time, I felt good about myself. Its like the world just slightly tilted in the right direction and everything makes sense. It’s not a scary feeling that you’ve given me, and it’s not unreal, and I can let myself believe in you because you are as much YOU as you possibly can be. I just found a little piece of hope that I will refuse to let go of. I want to be your best friend. I want to be your “perfect” one. I want to marry you one day, and say “Look, I married my best friend, and now life is going to be so good!”
After we talked I took a shower and afterwards, made eye contact with myself in the mirror for the first time in a very long while. And I didn’t look away too quickly, and I told myself that I was absolutely freaking beautiful.
I’m on a cloud. But its tangible.
I can’t wait to get closer to You.