So you’ve been away for two weeks and only got back today – why is the first thing you do come over and visit me, if you no longer want me as your girlfriend?
Not that I didn’t appreciate the visit, but it has me feeling all the wrong things. You broke up with me nearly 5 months ago but still wanted to remain friends which I was happy with, as I was not ready to lose you from my life. And I’m still not. But I don’t think you understand I still love you. You went away with the guys, but you brought me back a gift, just like your friend did for his fiancee. It gives the wrong impression sometimes.
I don’t think you realise how lonely I have been since you left me. You were my best friend. You were one of the reasons that I managed to graduate yesterday – when you were with me, I didn’t hate myself so much. I felt like I had a reason to be. But now the loneliness creeps over me, and I feel worthless. Even though it has been 5 months, it hasn’t got easier. I miss you and love you, and just want you back.
I don’t know how much longer I can cope without you there by my side.