The other day I made a mistake. I finally said what i’ve been thinking for months out loud. Saying it out loud to someone else made it real and that’s what scared me the most. We have been friends for almost 2 years now, but more than that you are my go to guy whenever I need something. I read something the other day that said love isn’t spontaneous and it doesn’t happen overnight it’s something that grows with each day. I of course immediately thought of you. I don’t want to sit here and say I’m in love with you. I think that’s a little extreme. All I know is you are where my mind goes whenever it wanders. It took me a long time to acknowledge my feelings for you to myself and even longer to admit it to someone else. Now that it’s out there, I can’t take it back and that scares me. Our friendships means a lot to me. It means so much I don’t know if I could ever even risk it for the possibility of something more. Now that I’ve admitted my feelings to myself, feelings that everyone else already seemed to guess, I don’t know what to do about it. We are friends first and foremost, but I can’t help but wonder what if?