The bittersweet feeling of lust. Lusting after someone you want but knowing that you’ll never be with them. I have come to understand that lusting over you is almost like having a burning feeling without ever feeling the pain. It’s knowing that the burning should hurt and waiting for it to hurt but never having the pain turn up. I have realized that I need to stop wanting you the way I do. I’m not supposed to feel the way I feel for you knowing that you shared vows with someone else. It’s a difficult reality to come to terms with, especially since I know that you feel the same way I feel about you. But it is time to face the facts and accept that they won’t change. I have to move on with my life and stop wanting more and more of you. It’s exhausting to continue to crave you and never have you to satisfy me. My life without you will be lonely at times but each day without you will be a sigh of relief for me.