• Lusting

    by  • July 12, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Yearning • 3 Comments

    The bittersweet feeling of lust. Lusting after someone you want but knowing that you’ll never be with them. I have come to understand that lusting over you is almost like having a burning feeling without ever feeling the pain. It’s knowing that the burning should hurt and waiting for it to hurt but never having the pain turn up. I have realized that I need to stop wanting you the way I do. I’m not supposed to feel the way I feel for you knowing that you shared vows with someone else. It’s a difficult reality to come to terms with, especially since I know that you feel the same way I feel about you. But it is time to face the facts and accept that they won’t change. I have to move on with my life and stop wanting more and more of you. It’s exhausting to continue to crave you and never have you to satisfy me. My life without you will be lonely at times but each day without you will be a sigh of relief for me.

    3 Responses to Lusting

    1. SillyMe
      July 12, 2011 at 9:48 pm

      Maybe I will be ridiculed for saying this, maybe this is really wrong but what is right and what is wrong anyway? It speaks from the heart more then dictated by society.

      I do not know your situation but just because I share a tidbit of mine:

      I was married for seventeen years without ever being in love, semi officially living separated for seven of them, legally (written documents) separated since 2008 but will be divorced in only a few days from now. Sometimes everything has a reason and sometimes the new love may not even know. Except by paper I have been divorced a long time ago, seven years ago to be exact, once this mutual arrangement took place.

      Never, and I really mean it from the bottom of my heart, for whatever reasons…never say never.

      What ever happens along your way, much happiness to you.

    2. Me
      July 12, 2011 at 10:45 pm

      I am in the exact same situation. It is horrible 🙁 wanting to be with someone and not being able to for whatever reason. My heart aches.

    3. Uncool
      July 12, 2011 at 11:51 pm

      There are days I wish I could have taken back in saying I love you to this person because I ended up dreaming about this person, thinking about what to say to her in the wee hours of the morning about how my day when and I latter realized that I was lusting after her. Knowing she was in a relationship made it that much more painful to be honest about my feelings for her so afterwards I basically emotionally removed her from my very thoughts – something I had hoped to never do.

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