I think we could have had that life shattering, soul bearing, passion burning kind of love, I really do. I know you would have given me the world on a silver platter, or anything for that matter. If only I had asked you for it, I know that I am the person whose trust you value above all others, and that out of respect and love for me, you let me make the decision. I know I didn’t choose you, and I know it still hurts, but I love him. I promised him before I met you that I would keep the pain away, and I never go back on my promises. That’s why I still love you, and keep you close to my heart. Though you will never truly be mine, I will love you like I promised, in my heart. In the darkest corner of my heart I am broken, I wanted to love you. To be your world, to help you, to show you what I know you so desperately want, but the truth is that I led you on, and I didn’t mean to. I’m sorry I can’t love you the way you want, I wish I could. If you ever read this, and know it’s for you, then I hope someday you’ll forgive me for not being who you needed me to be, I’ll always love you anyways, in the deepest, darkest part of my heart, where no one else will ever know.