You have absolutely no idea what effect you’ve had on me. I know to the world I seem exactly the same but so much has changed inside my head. I was having so many bad experiences and I was losing faith in people big time. Then I spend one amazing night with you and it all changes. People are NICE. Really nice. Lovely even. They travel and live life to the full. And they’re funny and ambitious. And they move back to their home country to finish their degree.
You are just too lovely for words. I know I’ll probably never see you again after you move back but you have restored my faith in people. In men especially. Some men want to meet interesting girls like me and not just flirt and fuck. Some men want to have conversations and experience intimacy. Some men want a girl with a brain in her head. Men like you. I think I’ll always “what if?” you because you are very wonderful. But I can accept that it’s a bit impossible. I will miss you. So much. But I will think of you when someone lets me down and know that the world has so much to offer.
I wish I could tell you this!! If I’d known you a little while longer then I probably would. If we had more time, I would. But you come back from your final trip tomorrow and I’m hoping that I can spend at least 2 nights with you before you leave next week. I’m not going to ruin it by telling you heavy things. I’m going to be fun and smiley and hope that I have some sort of effect on you.
You think I’m beautiful. And that’s more than enough reason to smile all day everyday. 🙂