• I hate summer

    by  • July 11, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Frustration • 1 Comment

    Maybe I am depressed. Maybe it’s because I am back “home”, and have no friends here. I don’t have anyone to really talk to. And I can’t see my friends because they live hours away. I don’t have a car and I’m trapped at home, without a job.
    God. I miss college.

    I hear about you going everywhere, getting a new car, able to get a job, travel anywhere you want.
    Yeah. I’m jealous.
    But only because I can’t.
    I can’t find a job, I’ve looked for over 4 months and now no one wants to hire anyone for only a month.
    I can’t travel anywhere because I don’t have a car.
    I can’t spend a lot of money- my dad is recently unemployed.

    I am SO Sorry that you don’t understand this.
    Sorry that I can’t do anything fun but I don’t have a car, job, or money.

    I just can’t do fun stuff right now.

    I wish you understood and would stop flaunting your accomplishments in my face.

    You know my situation.
    And if you were in the same situation, I wouldn’t flaunt everything in your face.

    You don’t understand. You’ll never understand. You’re too privileged to understand.

    I wish I had a job.
    I want to drive the hell away from this place. It’s not home. Not at all.

    I want to go back to college.
    That’s where my home is, my friends, my love.
    I miss it.

    I hate summer.

    One Response to I hate summer

    1. Rin
      July 11, 2011 at 6:17 am

      I can relate. While I do have a job and some means of transporting myself around, I miss college so much right now. I’ve made some amazing friends there, and none of them live close enough to see this summer (those that live under two hours away have schedules that don’t work with mine). While I have friends here at home, I’ve found myself changing who I hang out with. Yes, I enjoy hanging out with my friends at home, but it’s still not the same as at school. At school I know I’m appreciated, loved, and cared for. It’s my home with a wonderful family. And I miss it so much…

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