• why

    by  • July 10, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Confusion • 0 Comments

    Why won’t you just let me fix things between us? We’ve been friends for 10 months. I know that’s not a long time, but it’s our first year of college. We stayed friends through everything, through the hookups, day drinking, hardcore study sessions, and nasty dining hall food. We weren’t just going out friends, we were actually friends. I would come to you with my problems and you would come to me with yours. Why would you let one night of binge drinking ruin everything?? I don’t care that you got blackout drunk. I would never judge you. But I was sober. I remember everything. Just please tell me why you are so upset. Losing your friendship is killing me. I know I have lots of other friends, but I want you. I let you into my life because you are a good person. This is so unlike you. I don’t understand. I’m pretty sure this happened because for the 3 days you wouldn’t even look at me you got all of your advice from a girl that hates me for no reason. She probably wants you to join the i-hate-this-chick-for-no-reason club. Please talk to me. I’ve tried everything to talk to you. I thought I could get over this and not need you. But I was wrong. I just want things to go back to normal. I want you to show up at my house at the most inconvenient times. i want to have your loyalty. I want your advice. I want your humor. I miss it all. We became so close for a reason. I know this isn’t what you want. Nobody needs to apologize. Nobody needs to freak out or cry. We just need to talk. We’re friends. And I refuse to let our friendship end this way. We’ve become the girls we hate, fighting for no reasons and picking sides. It’s not okay. This isn’t you and this isn’t us. Just answer one of my calls, one of my texts, one of my emails, one of my facebook messages. I don’t know what else to do. All I do know is I’m not giving up until you tell me to my face that you hate me.

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