• Confused

    by  • July 10, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, God • 2 Comments

    Dear God,

    I’ve done alot for you, in you. I’ve loved. Forgiven. When is it my turn? I’m losing faith and trust in people and in life. I’ve been beyond patient.

    At least stop placing carrot sticks in front of me if you take them away. How long do you want me to be alone? Please send me my partner, please help the people I pray for, please bless me once in a while with what I really want. I’m grateful but it seems you give me everything excpet what would fulfill my deepest desires, and that is to be loved by someone I love. You not only keep this from me, but you put people in my life who I end up loving who hurt me. Am I asking too much? I thought you provided for needs? I’m not asking for bad things, or selfish, so what is it? You’re killing me. I’m tired of it.

    2 Responses to Confused

    1. hope
      July 11, 2011 at 10:18 am

      I know this feeling. It is a hard one. But maybe what He is trying to do is show you that nothing in this world can satisfy your deepest desires. Only He can be enough, more than enough. That perfect person, that best friend, that true love, will never be enough. People can never satisfy our deepest desires. It is a hard way to think, but it is the truth. Our relationship with Go is the only thing that can show us what true contentment is. “If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.” C.S. Lewis
      We were made for God, for a relationship with Him. Until you are ready to be satisfied with only Him, He will continue to show you how unsatisfying the world is. I hope this helps. It is really hard, I face these feelings everyday. But I have hope and I trust Him.

    2. Kyle
      August 1, 2011 at 12:58 pm

      God loves you, and He will give you the desires of your heart. But something you must learn, which any man or woman of faith struggles with is learning that our time frame is not the same as God’s. God is building you up, it is plain to see for me, with every day that passes you desire this partner more and more, when the day comes that God sees fit to place them in your path, you will see that not only has your wait been worth it, but every second of disappointment has made the moment sweeter. Have faith that God, the all powerful, the creator of the universe, and your own mind, knows what is best, have faith in His promises and continue to do His work and you will be rewarded.

      Delight yourself in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. ~ Psalm 37:4,5

      God will not punish you for not being “satisfied with only Him” He created us, He knows that we have a basic need for human interaction. Whether or not you are satisfied with Him alone, if you place your trust in Him, He will NOT fail you. Your love is out there, God is preparing him/her for you.

    Leave a Reply