I know I’ve said this before but I’m sorry. I’m sorry for pushing you away again. I’m sorry for saying maybe we couldn’t handle being just friends after all. And I’m sorry for saying goodbye… goodbye for good. I didn’t mean it, I never mean it. Truth is, I still have more feelings for you then I ever thought would be possible after all this time. Although I may be wrong, I think you still have feelings for me too. After all:
Who would hang out on a someone’s towel until they were forced to come over and talk to you… when you didn’t even go to the beach together?
Who would look miserably sad when seeing someone with their new boyfriend over a year later?
Who would go out walking with someone from 1 to 4 in the morning to spots where you had spent some time hiding from security and in love?
Who remembers the random like minute duck chasing event that brought you two together in the first place like 2 years ago?
WHO KISSES SOMEONE WHO YOU KNOW IS STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU, RIGHT WHEN YOU STARTED TO BE FRIENDS AGAIN, AFTER EXACTLY ONE YEAR AND SIX MONTHS FROM THE DATE WE BROKE UP, AND THEN JUSTIFIES IT BY SAYING YOU JUST LIKE TO KISS?
I’m sorry for saying maybe we couldn’t handle being just friends. I was scared and hurt. No one was able to hurt me before like the way you did, and I was afraid of it happening again. Just because I have a boyfriend now doesn’t mean I wouldn’t have chosen you. And being that “you have a boyfriend, I shouldn’t have done that” was all you had to say, I pushed you away. You said recently that “ever since we first met something sparked between us” and I agree. Please forgive me and we can go back to being friends. Having you in my life as a friend is better that not having you at all.
…I love you…