From day one you had me, the way we connected, we just talked for hours. We never lost that, we were always so comfortable with each other. Thats how I knew you were the one, I could trust you with anything, and sometimes I know you better than I even knew myself. You made me feel so special. You made me feel so loved. I trusted you with my heart, my soul, my everything. You were there when no one else was, you supported me when I needed it the most. I will always be so thankful for the way you made me feel and the way I could depend on you, but maybe thats what did us in. Maybe I depended on you too much, not maybe, I did. I gave up everything for you. When you left I put my life on hold, I spent all my free time writing to you, I thought about you every minute of every day. You became my life, and everything else fell to the side. I depended on you for everything, and that wasnt healthy. I made you feel sufficated, and I am so sorry, but I know my mistakes now. I can change. Why wont you give me a chance? I loved you with everything I am, and I still do. We were perfect for each other, everyone else thought so too. I would have done anything for you, and I truly believe that we could have lasted a lifetime. We connected in a way that most people never do in there life. For over 2 years you were my best friend, you told me everyday how much you loved me. How can that just change? How can that love disappear? What happened? Please just give our love one more chance. I love that we are still friends and hang out and talk everyday, but honestly it is killing me inside, cause I want so much more. I want to spend my life with you. I want to have your children. I want to grow old and love you everyday of my life. You used to want these things too. Part of me likes to think you were just scared of the commitment and you werent ready to settle down, because then I still have hope that one day you will come back to me, but I try not to think that way, cause I dont want to get my hopes up for something that probably will never happen. I try to accept the fact that we are done, that we both will move on and that we both will fall in love with other people, but inside I cant believe that. I dont think I will ever love someone as deeply and completely as I love you. You were my everything, and you understand my completely, I dont think I will ever find that with anyone else, so I can only hope that you will miss me, that you will realize that you made the biggest mistake of your life letting me go. I know that you loved me and I know that you thought about spending your life with me. We used to say we were soulmates, and I still believe that we are, so when you are ready I’m waiting. Come back to me.
Love forever and always, Hannah