• Innocence and Idiots.

    by  • July 8, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Resentment • 0 Comments

    I’d like to take a moment and fill you in on everything you did to me. So sit down, and take a breath, relax your muscles, and empty your mind.

    Go back to meeting 15 year old me, remember my glace and how I looked away the moment your eyes drifted my way. Remember the innocence I possessed, the very innocence you stole away. Remember the body that was once pure, but now you may see whenever you like. Remember you were 21, and held the knowledge to know better, the experience to tell you to say no, and the lack or morality to say yes.

    I want you to know you were the biggest mistake of my life. You stole my innocence, without ever even laying a hand on me. You were supposed to be a role model, but the only wisdom you left me with, I developed after getting over you. Sometimes when it’s a little too quiet, or the darkness becomes to much, I remember who I thought you were, and I shudder like a child waking from a nightmare. I want you to know, you should thank me for protecting your career.

    I want you to know I’m better without you. I know what love feels like, and it’s warmth lingers on me day by day. I want you to know I wish you the best, because I know the best will never be good enough for you, and I want you to know I really do wish you a life of happiness, but finally, I want you to know I’ll never be in it.

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