I don’t even know where to start. We have been together for almost 4 years now. Broken up twice. Both times were my “fault”. I wanted to spread my wings and see what else was out there. Did I ever take you for granted? I would say yes. But do I regret doing what I did? No… I don’t. I’m four years younger than you… I always say that you have more life experience than me. In your early twenties you were crazy and nuts and a party-man and all that. In my early twenties I spent it in a serious relationship. Do you know how hard that has been? I have wanted to go crazy too, do everything that I’m not supposed to do. Isn’t NOW the time I am supposed to do that anyways? I feel like you got your chance and I never got mine. Now our relationship is a rough terrain that never seems to smooth out. It’s a constant uphill battle. We fight at least once a week. It is always about what I need to improve, what I should change, what I am doing wrong, what I did wrong in the past, etc! It’s crazy. Despite the fighting, I love you so much. I want my future to include you. I want you to be the father of my children. But I feel like I am not enough. I need to be appreciated too. I have appreciated the hell out of you – it’s easy to do since you are such an amazing person. I am more rough around the edges. I wish we could just get past the fighting. It’s not worth all the stress and tears. I’m at a loss. We’re at the place where we either take each others’ hands and move forward, or just call it quits. I’m at a loss.