• letter #33 – i miss you so much it hurts

    by  • July 7, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Miss You • 0 Comments


    This is the longest i’ve gone without seeing you. Babe, I miss you so much. Even those words can’t capture what I mean. I miss every inch of you. I fall asleep holding your favorite sweatshirt because I know that it’s a piece of you. Lately I’ve been crying myself to sleep every night because the thought of you brings up memories, good memories. The days when I could feel your heart beating crazy fast and you’d say “Funny. That only happens when I’m with you.” The days when I could hear your voice and see your smile. Babe, those images are fading. And I’m scared. I don’t want to forget those things. They’re all I have to hold on to. Our friends keep telling me that I’m crazy for holding on. I mean, as of right now, we haven’t talked in a week. I couldn’t tell you about an important thing that happened in my life today. I don’t know where you are or what you’re doing. Probably following your passion, as always. You’re not ignoring me. I know this for a fact. I’m used to days like this. But why does it hurt so much now? ….You want to know why I hang on? Because you will text me after an extremely busy day of doing what you love just to say hi and remind me that you love me. Right before you’re about to collapse onto your bed from exhaustion. When I do see you, you look at me like a child looking at presents under the Christmas tree. You still practice chivalry like a gentleman. I would do anything to see you again. I love you with every fiber of my being. See you soon, love.

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