• Enough

    by  • July 7, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Thoughts • 3 Comments

    Dear anyone,

    Have you ever felt so abandoned and vulnerable, yet devoid of emotion? You have so many thoughts troubling you, but you just can’t seem to let them out. You want to cry or hurt or feel anything other than the dull ache which seems to radiate from your soul. You’ve been through so much and along the way, the world has made you doubt. Doubt yourself and what you have to offer, your value, your rights. This is how I feel all the time. Although I know I have people who care about me, it just doesn’t seem so. It’s hard to think that anything is enough anymore. Every time someone says they love me, all I can think is ‘Is love enough?’ There’s so much out there that can break you down, and yet a four letter word said by the right people is supposed to build you up. Is that even possible? Love is such an abstract thing, what if I need something concrete? I need something tangible. No matter what I’ve gone through and what I face, I need to know that I matter. That I mean something. That I’m enough…

    3 Responses to Enough

    1. sarah
      July 7, 2011 at 8:24 pm

      I completely understand. all of it. I feel like i need that concreteness too. But I just don’t seem to know what that is…

    2. hope
      July 7, 2011 at 9:06 pm

      I have been there. I remember clearly how I felt. I remember fear, ache and questions. Uncertainty. I know now that I am not enough. None of us are. But the best news in the world is we don’t have to be. Because we have meaning. Because God is enough for us. He lifts us up and keeps us going and gives us peace. I don’t know how you feel about God, but He loves you, more than I or your family ever could. It is discouraging when people say they care, but don’t show it. He did. He sacrificed His son, His Son gave His own life willingly so that we could be with God. You matter to Him and you matter to me. You can take this or leave it, it is your choice. But I pray you take it.

    3. SillyMe
      July 7, 2011 at 9:49 pm

      Is never enough the same as always being too much?
      I feel a strange similarity. While you wonder if love can ever be enough, I have no doubt and rather see love as most important and the breath that keeps me going. What, really, what else is there? Money? Power? Fame? Pleasing everybody but your own heart?
      No, I have no doubt. I doubt I will ever have someone in my life able to put up with me and love me back for all that I am, or maybe I should say, that I am not?

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