• You’re the perfect guy, but…

    by  • July 6, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Confusion • 0 Comments

    You’re the perfect guy. I don’t know how or why you’re still single. You’re funny, tall, handsome, caring, and full of passions and dreams. We click so well together. You feed off of my jokes, and I feed off of yours. You treat me so well and are SO nice to me. You offer to take me on the most romantic dates I ever could imagine. I am attracted to you in every which way. We could lead the perfect life together….

    But, there’s something I just can’t put my finger on. I want to like you so much. I want to go on these awesome adventures with you. I know you like me, but I’m not sure if I like you. I don’t know if it’s because of the wall I put up after my bf of 3 years broke up with me 5 months ago, or if it’s because we just don’t have chemistry or that spark yet.

    I’m so confused. We have so much fun together. I don’t know why I can’t fall for you. It hurts me so much, but not as much as you’re probably being hurt by me. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Maybe I’m too damaged. Im sure every girl out there would fall for you instantly. Your offers to take me night flying or on a sunset motorcyle ride would have girls drooling for you. But i’m scared. I decline your invites and say I’m too busy. I don’t know why I do it. I sit and cry about it. I’m confused. I don’t feel comfortable. I’m broken. I’m damaged goods.

    I want so badly to like you, please know that. I’m trying so hard, but I think I’m so severely damaged that it’s impossible for me to think straight or appreciate someone good in my life. I’m so sorry. I don’t want you to wait around for me because you would probably be happier with someone who would jump at your kind gestures and great personality. It’s probably going to take a while for me to figure my things out, and by the time I do, if I do, I know it’ll be too late.

    Please know, I would give anything in the world to develop feelings for you. But I just can’t right now.

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