• Sucks Being Me.

    by  • July 6, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Wish, Yearning • 2 Comments

    Here’s the thing, you guys don’t get it. You guys are my friends and everything, but you don’t seem to realize what i go through. I have never had a real boyfriend. And honestly, i don’t think there’s ever been a guy who’s had a crush on me. I mean why would they? I’m fat and ugly. And i don’t mean those stupid ass girls who say “I’m so fat” and they’re like a size 3. No i’m a size 18. Who could like someone like me?

    …I lost my train of thought there, my point was that it’s hard being in our group. Not because you guys are mean or anything, but because i’m the ugly one in the group. Every guy looks and crushes on all of you guys but me. Heck all three of our closest guy friends had crushes on all three of you at one point or another. And one of them even used me to get to one of you guys (which has happened before). Yeah they’re all really nice to me, and it’s not like there has ever been name calling, but it still hurts.

    I just wish there was a guy who liked ME. A guy who looked at me from the beginning. One who wasn’t trying to get to one of you guys using me. A guy who looked passed my physical appearance, and liked me anyway. One can only wish right?…

    2 Responses to Sucks Being Me.

    1. Chels
      July 6, 2011 at 7:42 pm

      wow i had to double check to make sure i didnt write this…ive been, actually am currently going through, the same exact thing. i feel that all my friends are prettier and guys like them more. a guy that i kinda dated but not really (long story) actually talked to me about liking one of my best friends. really? i mean all you gotta try to do is stay away from douche bags that dont except you for who you are. its ahrd to do, but eventually you WILL find someone caring and accepting who will like everything about you. just be patient and itll happen 🙂

    2. alyssa
      July 6, 2011 at 8:12 pm

      Beautiful has nothing to do with the size of your jeans.. its what’s the inside that matters, you better believe your chance to shine will come.. but until then don’t be so hard on yourself.. confidence is the sexiest thing you can wear. Embrace yourself, and realize we ALL our faults..

      Stay beautiful, and keep that chin up girl.

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