• Next Chapter

    by  • July 6, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Love - Pure and Simple • 4 Comments

    Hey you, guess what? I miss you.. Actually, I miss you more than I should. Ever since you left you have been an asshole, and I still put up with it. Now you’re coming backs saying you have changed?

    So lets try this again, i’ll try to trust you again. But want to know the truth? I’m scared, i’m scared to death…

    Ever since you’ve left i’ve been scared, scared over the littlest things. And honestly, I still can’t stop thinking about you. I know I probably should have left and never came back. But something about you is so addicting. The way you look at me, your smile, your touch, your embrace, your…everything. It keeps me coming back wanting more. My head says, “Stop, he’s lying to you like every other time before” and my heart says, “See that look? He’s never looked at you that way before.”

    After all the words you have said, all the pain you caused, all the lonely nights I had, I never regretted you.. Not once.

    And sometimes what kills me the most is I don’t hate you, Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all…

    Truth is, I still deeply, uncontrollably, unconditionally, irrevocably, and madly love you.

    So here’s to you, my darling…I hope you have changed like you said, I hope you will treat me better than before, and honestly, I hope you read this even though you will never be on this site.. Because I could never say these words to you…

    4 Responses to Next Chapter

    1. Aubrey
      July 7, 2011 at 10:49 am

      Wow, that was deep.

    2. Lissa
      July 7, 2011 at 12:28 pm

      Just beautiful! And very similar to the simtuation I kind of find myself in, as well.

    3. beara
      July 11, 2011 at 10:56 pm

      some peopel forgive nonstop to ears that dont want to hear them, some pepole go to bed everynight even after yelling at each other all night and comes to bed and lays down in bed and tucks you in and tries to treat the next day as a new one. but some people hold on to it. as if forgiveness isnt a option even if you was able to hear the words daily coming to you.
      never go to sleep angry , and you never know when time will stop so if you get mad or someone gets mad at you. someone be the better person and turn right around and find a middle point. not a ending point. joined at the heart is not something you can do while one heart is in a box still on your door step and yours is in the sky looking for the next dream. go with your heart they say.
      my heart is for a few things and few only. small and not for me at that i might add.
      does the heart you have a resolution for at least a smile from the ones who tried for years to help you smile? thats why i ask people who are not bias for a real opinion. and wrong is wrong. i stand up and say it. prob last time you stood up was to take a step away from the ones who always day in and day out tried to help.
      next chapter ? funny i said that today a few times and then run across this.. i see a green chapter with platinum waves of love

    4. Kayla
      July 12, 2011 at 12:49 pm

      Okay, What? that wasn’t very clear. What are you trying to say? haha

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