I love you so much and I am so happy that we’re finally together after a year of not being sure of what we were. We’re so happy now… which is why I’m sorry I slept with him. We weren’t dating when it happened and even though I knew he took advantage of me I am sorry I let it happen those times. I was talking about how much I missed you and loved you and he just went for it. I wanted to be loved so badly (you were so far away) that I let it happen. I thought it was okay since we weren’t dating… now I’m so scared to tell you. I know you’ll understand – you said we’re soul mates and we’ll always understand each other…but I’m just so scared. I hate him so much for what he did and what I let him do to me and I love you so much for being my best friend and now my lover forever. Please don’t hate me.