• i don’t want to love you

    by  • July 6, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Heartbreak • 0 Comments

    I love you and I know that I shouldn’t. You broke my heart more than I thought possible. I thought I was ok because I didn’t think there was any way that I could love someone that promised not to hurt me, but i’m finding that I do. Seeing you with her kills me more than you can imagine. Sitting right next to you while you answer the phone with a “hey babe” tears my heart apart more and more. And seeing the two of you out with all our friends? Forget about it, I completely lost it but that is something I will never let you know. I try to be as strong as possible and act like it doesn’t bother me but truth is, it does. I hate watching you fall in love with someone new right in front of me and knowing that there is absolutely nothing I can do or say to change that. That is why I can’t tell you any of this, it wouldn’t make a difference. And by me admitting that I’m still in love with you will only give you the satisfaction you need, knowing that i’ll still be here so you can string me along like you’ve been doing. I shouldn’t love you anymore, I don’t want to love you anymore. But it’s too hard to move on when you don’t have your entire heart back.

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